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megwrites ([personal profile] megwrites) wrote2011-04-04 04:45 pm

Random assortment

1. I just want to say a big "bless you" to all those authors who put up sample chapters on their sites, and actually start with the first part when they do this. I've come across several authors who want to pull an excerpt from, say, chapter 20 or chapter 10 or some such and I'm like, "THIS DOES NOT HELP ME". The thing is, to understand your book, I need to read it in order. Thus, I need to start from page one. And while chapter 20 may be a page turner, if the first 19 chapters are boring as hell, I'm not going to invest. Which is why I like to start at the beginning. To make sure that your book is giving me a reason to want to read on.

2. I have a really, really evil trouble starting post in my head after seeing some news around the writersphere about a couple of paranormal romance series being discontinued for bad sales according to their authors.

But one in particular really made me want to say some inordinately snarky things. It's not that I relish a fellow writer not meeting with success when they work hard and put their hearts on the line, it's that when said writer pens a book that basically says from front to back, "Sorry, people like YOU aren't good enough to be in this book. People like YOU are too ugly for a Sexy Tiems Paranormal Romance Like This, come back when you're beautiful", I'm not sad to see it leave the shelves. And I feel just a little bit vindicated to know it failed.

The thing is? I'm used to mainstream romance and paranormal romance hating me by exclusion. I'm used to being told I'm not pretty enough because I've got covers and covers and covers of books about skinny heterosexual white chicks staring at me to let me know what is pretty enough. And I've sort of learned to deal and find the hidden gems and live with eternal optimism and not expect too much.

But this book didn't just settle for exclusion, it went right on to face slapping. This one book actually made me leave not just the romance bookshelves (and abandon all the other books I was going to preview and consider buying) but the bookstore. It was during this winter when I was going through a lot of bad mental stuff and there I am, looking for something exciting and fun to read because damn but I needed some relief and *bam*. Hit in the face with the things that have, at times, my made life completely miserable. Things I have to push back against on the daily or cave in to self-harm.

For the moment, I'll table that post because I'm not looking to get into internet drama over it, but one day I may make the post about how writers need to think twice (and thrice) before they decide ignoring big parts of their potential audience is the way to go - because as recent news would seem to bear out, that bigotry isn't working out so well for some people.

3. It being poetry month and me not wanting to post any of my own poems right now, I'll post my favorite Pablo Neruda poem:

Sonnet XI
by Pablo Neruda


I crave your mouth, your voice, your hair.
Silent and starving, I prowl through the streets.
Bread does not nourish me, dawn disrupts me, all day
I hunt for the liquid measure of your steps.

I hunger for your sleek laugh,
your hands the color of a savage harvest,
hunger for the pale stones of your fingernails,
I want to eat your skin like a whole almond.

I want to eat the sunbeam flaring in your lovely body,
the sovereign nose of your arrogant face,
I want to eat the fleeting shade of your lashes,

and I pace around hungry, sniffing the twilight,
hunting for you, for your hot heart,
like a puma in the barrens of Quitratue.
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[personal profile] apis_mellifera 2011-04-05 08:17 pm (UTC)(link)
YES. Except, you know, she drags it out for like FIVE BOOKS before Rachel FINALLY tells Ivy that she only wants to be friends. Poor Ivy. Who is awesome and deserves SO MUCH BETTER than that.

I actually really liked those books when I started reading (and then reviewing) them. Now I think Rachel is entirely too stupid to live and I'm getting really fucking tired of her leveling up at the end of each book.
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[personal profile] apis_mellifera 2011-04-05 08:42 pm (UTC)(link)
I get paid to read them, which does help. A little bit. I think, though, at some point I'm going to hit LKH levels of irritation and have to find someone else to review them.

Jenks and Ivy are my favorites, for sure. And I do like the sort of post-apocalyptic world she's got going on but it's becoming really clear to me that she's rapidly running out of plot--the series was supposed to run seven books and she's up to nine now.
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[personal profile] holyschist 2011-04-05 08:34 pm (UTC)(link)
KIM HARRISON. I still feel kind of betrayed by that.

(I loved Ivy SO MUCH, dammit. And she does deserve better than Rachel, but if she wants Rachel, I wish Rachel would get over her "I am STRAIGHT even though Ivy makes me heart ~flutter~ BUT NO I AM STRAIGHT" bullshit and then maybe I'd start reading the books again despite the leveling-up and how boring I find Al.)
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[personal profile] holyschist 2011-04-05 08:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Haha, it's like you're IN MY BRAIN. Kim Harrison got my hopes up for an actual bisexual heroine and then destroyed them in the most obnoxious way possible. And then I kind of gave up on the books entirely, for assorted reasons. (And her guestbook was full of relieved readers who just wouldn't have been able to "identify" with a bi Rachel. WTF, if I can read books with straight male protagonists, I should think straight women could read books with queer female protagonists. But I generally hate the idea that characters must be "identifiable" and just like use in order to be "identifiable.")

I keep getting really enthused about a new UF series for about three books, and then really bitter when it turns out to be the same old crap. *siiiiigh*
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[personal profile] holyschist 2011-04-05 08:46 pm (UTC)(link)
See, I want to believe that it's about the publishers etc. underestimating readers...but then I see the same crap in reviews, and I just get discouraged. I am sorry I am so FREAKISH and IMPOSSIBLE TO IDENTIFY WITH. And, IDK, maybe I could be a person worth knowing even if you don't "identify" with me?

Apparently I take book representation overly personally or something.

(I don't generally "identify" with those straight male characters, but I don't generally identify with characters--and when I do, it's usually about personality, not identity. But apparently readers like me are unicorns.)

I'd thank these folks not to justify their own prejudices and fail by assuming that me (and other readers) are so narrow minded and bereft of basic empathy that the mere sight of someone who isn't JUST like us will send us running.

THIS.
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[personal profile] holyschist 2011-04-05 09:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I know. *sigh*

There's a post in there about what it means to identify, but know that you're not the only unicorn in the herd. I'm there, too.

I also think we oversell this idea that a reader must "identify", especially when I think by identify people really mean "be interested in and sympathize with".


I would read this post and cheer.
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[personal profile] apis_mellifera 2011-04-05 09:08 pm (UTC)(link)
I wonder if some of this attitude--especially in PNR/UF--comes from mainstream romance which is a highly segmented market which is supposedly full of readers who often only read a scant handful of types of romance and which, historically, has had pretty specific guidelines for what types of stories are appropriate and what kinds of people should be in them. I'm just sort of throwing this idea out there--I could be completely full of it.

I tried to read a HQN Presents a while ago and couldn't because it had a domineering alpha hero who rapes the heroine (the alpha thing is to be expected in a Presents title; I wasn't expecting the rape). And it was published in 2009.