Watch me commit poetry right in front of God and humankind! (NaPoWriMo, Day #1, posted late)

[megwrites]

"I did not sleep 'til sunup that night"
by: Meg Freeman


My heart flutters like
a blacked winged bird in the
crosshatched darkness
shaded all around the
moon, unspeakable
I believe I am waiting to
learn my fate here
and will only learn it letter
by slow writ letter
'til it spells doesn't matter
over everything I touched

Unspeaking. I am an
orator condemned to live
caged in a stuttering soul
and a stammering body
that unsteady flicker like
a fluorescent bulbs overhead
buzzing, incessant, inconstant
ignorable until silence, a
thief steals away distractions

Now I keep a close and careful quietude
I cultivate a creeping void
and fight to keep it strangling all
the other small, stunted fruits
that I can claim I grew
I save my voice for the most desperate
of the screams
the escaping prisoners
for the chance that I may one day
be asked to sing my song
in proximity to listening ears

Yet, it used to be I was so strong a thing
I gripped the world tight
and rode with the optimism of
certain uncertainty guiding me
Once I had the gift of unproven notions
and stood up so straight and tall
that you would hide all
your iron and all your wine, lest
I find myself in your town
at lose ends and cross purposes

(c) Meg Freeman.