A poem owed
Jul. 15th, 2012 11:57 amDedicated to: @xiomberg for the generous donation in the tip jar for City of the Hand. I hope this poem is worthy of your gift to me.
"Writing Implements"
I miss writing in pencil
the way I did when a student
erases then seemed
a restrain and an insult to
my certainty
I wanted pens, pens, pens!
I bold, in colored ink
mistakes regardless, no, especially!
I treasured my errors then
in the days of pink rubber ends
like a mat to catch me
when I overbalanced, miscalculated
I wanted to let them all stand
even when I fell
I wanted the unfettered tightrope
I wanted the danger of permanent decisions beneath me
Now I use pens and all my wrongs
find inky immortality
the misspellings misunderstandings
mischief misery mistiming
missing words
all forever and ever
incontrovertible and uncorrectable
Older now, I push harder on pens and
my hands ache if I've pressed long enough to
try to squeeze perfection
from my very joints
I try harder, I try with better paper, better tools
I even try to let the lines curl
until mistakes become miracles
And still my teeth ache to bite on wood
and rubber and to find the ease
of wiping any and everything away
to leave a new space and a new start
"Writing Implements"
I miss writing in pencil
the way I did when a student
erases then seemed
a restrain and an insult to
my certainty
I wanted pens, pens, pens!
I bold, in colored ink
mistakes regardless, no, especially!
I treasured my errors then
in the days of pink rubber ends
like a mat to catch me
when I overbalanced, miscalculated
I wanted to let them all stand
even when I fell
I wanted the unfettered tightrope
I wanted the danger of permanent decisions beneath me
Now I use pens and all my wrongs
find inky immortality
the misspellings misunderstandings
mischief misery mistiming
missing words
all forever and ever
incontrovertible and uncorrectable
Older now, I push harder on pens and
my hands ache if I've pressed long enough to
try to squeeze perfection
from my very joints
I try harder, I try with better paper, better tools
I even try to let the lines curl
until mistakes become miracles
And still my teeth ache to bite on wood
and rubber and to find the ease
of wiping any and everything away
to leave a new space and a new start
The last and final update for the novel
Jun. 29th, 2012 10:45 amWell, it's been ten weeks from the first posting to this, but all thirty chapters of
cityofthehand are up and available to read. You can now go from beginning to end!
The final ebook file (which I hope to have in EPUB, MOBI, and PDF formats, gods willing and laptop don't fry) should be up and ready for downloading on 1-July. If not, it may be after the 4th before I get it done. But rest assured, if you were waiting for the final ebook file, it's coming.
Seeing as how part of my incentive to reward any who tipped/donated was to give them the full ebook early, I'm now changing that. If you put in for the tip jar, you can either get named thank you on my tumblr, twitter, or DW/LJ sites or you can have me link/signal boost to any site or person or thing you think deserves it.
If you tip in $25 or more, then you can get those things listed above *and* a short story, poem, essay, etc.
I'm actually kind of a little emotional here. I guess these ten weeks have been something I looked forward to. Because every week I had at least one thing I had to get accomplished, and seeing more and more people either friend the various journals where I posted the novel or send me a nice note or two or even put into the tip jar gave me badly needed boosts when I was feeling down.
As I said last week, money is still tight around here and Girlie!Dog had to go and need some medicine this week. Gah, silly dog, not wanting to get contagious diseases or heartworms or ticks. Such a princess this one. Geez. *sarcastic eye roll*.
I'm a bit shy about asking, but if anyone had any thoughts about putting into the tip jar - even if it's just a dollar or two - now would be a REALLY GREAT TIME to do that and I could sure use it.
And if you can't or don't feel like it (fair enough!), dropping a note to say how you liked the book or recommending it to a friend you think might enjoy it is also something that would really be awesome. Feedback - criticisms, critiques, praise, or just "hey, cool book" - is always welcome with me.
Better yet, I know better than to argue with reviews, so feel free to review it as honestly as possible!
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The final ebook file (which I hope to have in EPUB, MOBI, and PDF formats, gods willing and laptop don't fry) should be up and ready for downloading on 1-July. If not, it may be after the 4th before I get it done. But rest assured, if you were waiting for the final ebook file, it's coming.
Seeing as how part of my incentive to reward any who tipped/donated was to give them the full ebook early, I'm now changing that. If you put in for the tip jar, you can either get named thank you on my tumblr, twitter, or DW/LJ sites or you can have me link/signal boost to any site or person or thing you think deserves it.
If you tip in $25 or more, then you can get those things listed above *and* a short story, poem, essay, etc.
I'm actually kind of a little emotional here. I guess these ten weeks have been something I looked forward to. Because every week I had at least one thing I had to get accomplished, and seeing more and more people either friend the various journals where I posted the novel or send me a nice note or two or even put into the tip jar gave me badly needed boosts when I was feeling down.
As I said last week, money is still tight around here and Girlie!Dog had to go and need some medicine this week. Gah, silly dog, not wanting to get contagious diseases or heartworms or ticks. Such a princess this one. Geez. *sarcastic eye roll*.
I'm a bit shy about asking, but if anyone had any thoughts about putting into the tip jar - even if it's just a dollar or two - now would be a REALLY GREAT TIME to do that and I could sure use it.
And if you can't or don't feel like it (fair enough!), dropping a note to say how you liked the book or recommending it to a friend you think might enjoy it is also something that would really be awesome. Feedback - criticisms, critiques, praise, or just "hey, cool book" - is always welcome with me.
Better yet, I know better than to argue with reviews, so feel free to review it as honestly as possible!
Special Saturday Update
Jun. 23rd, 2012 06:19 pmYou thought I forgot didn't you?
Nope!
The next three chapters of The City of the Hand are live! They're up and ready to read either here at Dreamwidth (
cityofthehand) or over at the LJ mirror of the novel (
cityofthehand)!
We're getting very, very close to the end now. This is the second to last update. Next week (probably on Friday) will be the final three chapters and then on July 1st I'll have the entire ebook file (in PDF, MOBI and EPUB formats, god willing) ready for people to download if they like.
Also, if anyone was thinking or considering about putting into the tip jar, please do. Money's gotten a little tight with a few medical bills and also Ye Old Car becoming very ye and very old and at the end of it's lifespan a few extra dollars would be really welcome right about now. Again, it's not as urgent as some folks who need money, but if you had any hankering to put any little bit into the tip jar, now would be a real great time to do that.
It comes with benefits! If you want to get the complete ebook file (in format of your choice) before July, any amount of money will do.
If you donate $25 or more, you get a short story, essay, poem, or other creative work from me. So if you like certain characters, want to revisit certain places, or just want to know some stuff that isn't in the story, put your cash in the tip jar and request away. How many times do you get to tell the author what you want to have written? I'll even try to draw the characters if you like. I make no promises about the quality of the resulting art, however.
Even if you don't have or just don't feel like putting money in (understandable), if you liked the novel even a little, tell a friend! Share a link! Write a review! I'd love to see anyone's honest, over all opinion. And I always welcome criticism, critique, and comments.
So I hope you've enjoyed taking this little journey in free fiction with me, and I hope most of all that you're enjoying this story. If nothing else, let it inspire you to know that if someone like me can write a whole damn book, you certainly can.
Nope!
The next three chapters of The City of the Hand are live! They're up and ready to read either here at Dreamwidth (
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We're getting very, very close to the end now. This is the second to last update. Next week (probably on Friday) will be the final three chapters and then on July 1st I'll have the entire ebook file (in PDF, MOBI and EPUB formats, god willing) ready for people to download if they like.
Also, if anyone was thinking or considering about putting into the tip jar, please do. Money's gotten a little tight with a few medical bills and also Ye Old Car becoming very ye and very old and at the end of it's lifespan a few extra dollars would be really welcome right about now. Again, it's not as urgent as some folks who need money, but if you had any hankering to put any little bit into the tip jar, now would be a real great time to do that.
It comes with benefits! If you want to get the complete ebook file (in format of your choice) before July, any amount of money will do.
If you donate $25 or more, you get a short story, essay, poem, or other creative work from me. So if you like certain characters, want to revisit certain places, or just want to know some stuff that isn't in the story, put your cash in the tip jar and request away. How many times do you get to tell the author what you want to have written? I'll even try to draw the characters if you like. I make no promises about the quality of the resulting art, however.
Even if you don't have or just don't feel like putting money in (understandable), if you liked the novel even a little, tell a friend! Share a link! Write a review! I'd love to see anyone's honest, over all opinion. And I always welcome criticism, critique, and comments.
So I hope you've enjoyed taking this little journey in free fiction with me, and I hope most of all that you're enjoying this story. If nothing else, let it inspire you to know that if someone like me can write a whole damn book, you certainly can.